Cold Turkey: Part II

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Cold Turkey: Part II

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Dylan Zeigenbein

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It has been a full week since I decided to start this journey.

I feel it is best to tell you about my story when it comes to Nikki. I started when I was 10. I saw it as a stress relief instead of the vice it really is. I used to get bullied and had a stressful home environment so I was always on edge, and Nikki helped me calm down. Then it turned into a social event. I had friends that started letting Nikki control them because of how much I would praise her.

Throughout the years I found more opportunities to let Nikki in and things really took a turn for the worse when it became legal. I started losing all control and thinking that it is ok to take part in these actions with Nikki even in school and at work. It was legal after all.

I think I started to realize how big of a hold Nikki had on me around the 4th time getting punished in school. That did not stop me though. I kept letting Nikki tell me what and when every day. At this point, it might ruin my entire future. I might not be able to catch up on grades and graduate. That has a bigger impact than just an extra semester in high school next school year.

I was feeling sick with withdrawal symptoms all weekend. Piercing headaches, coughing, nausea, and rage. It was not a good weekend but now a full week in and the pain is a little less and I think I am starting to gain control over myself now. That is progress, and at the moment any progress is good.